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On Sisyphus, Camus, knowledge and Chaim Potoks In The Beginning

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Of late it seems that I am being haunted by intertextuality. Each book that I pick up seems to slot into the vast Connect Four board of hermeneutics that is my reading life, and with everything I read, I find my to-read list growing ever broader and ever deeper.

I seem to be at a stage in my reading where so many unknown unknowns are swiftly becoming known unknowns. Its a tantalising, maddening point to reach, and my reading has slowed dramatically as I find myself digging not just more deeply into individual works, but in my attempts to see how they connect to each other.

While reading Camus'The Myth of Sisyphus, which I read just after Chaim Potoks'In the Beginning,'I happened across an article on breath and breathing by Sebastian Normandin that somehow tied the concepts in the two books together for me.

All three texts evoke in me a mental image of a pendulum, an image that I think is quite aptly applied to where I find myself in my own reading and writing and desire for understanding.

In Sisyphuss endlessly repeating task, as in breathing, as in the quest for knowledge, there is a precipice, a turning point, that must be negotiated. There is the point where Sisyphuss boulder reaches its gravitational apogee, at which it will begin to descend again; there is also the point where Sisyphus pauses, reflects, then commits to beginning his task anew. The same sequence occurs with each breath that we take.

But each instance can never be the exact same beginning as the last one. You might argue that all beginnings are turning points, and all turning points are beginnings. Each change, each realisation, each opportunity for growth involves seeing the boulder tumble back down, ready to be pushed up again to that cruelly insurmountable precipice.

In the Beginning'is filled with these moments. A lyrical, formidable bildungsroman, its many things, but for me its most saliently a celebration of the courage involved in not just recognising a new branch in the ever unspooling fractal of ones intellectual life, but in deciding to take this branch.

Its a celebration of curiosity, of the sometimes destructive human thirst for knowledge and understanding, of the breath-stealing moment that is standing at that edge and wondering just where the pendulum will take you.

All beginnings are hard, writes narrator David. Especially a beginning that you make by yourself. Thats the hardest beginning of all.

Indeed, Davids battle is one that bears many similarities to that of Sisyphusand Camus would surely quirk an eyebrow at the absurdity (in the Camus sense) of a young Jewish boy devoting a life to biblical study. Its an absurdity that Potok acknowledges in the narrative through the unanticipated precipices that he throws Davids way:

I have accidents all the time. I killed a canary and a dog by accident. And I fall and hurt myself. And I almost started a fire once in our kitchen. And I almost fell out of my windowEvery night I dream about having accidentssometimes I think theres something wrong with me.

But like Sisyphus, David persists despite the many and myriad obstacles in his way. When he muses:'when you didnt expect something to happen and it happened, that was also an accident its hard not to think about this in terms of unknowns and turning points. Accidents are, obviously, an outcome of sorts, and therefore represent a turning point; a possibility for a new beginning or that moment whereupon a Sisyphean hero takes that breath and makes a decision to continue.

By persisting in his search for knowledge in the face of these accidents, David is constantly reasserting his humanity. Its those who dont struggle, who dont seek those turning points who slip away into nothingness, into intellectual and spiritual stagnation:

Whats a sacred heart? David asks at one point, to which he receives the response:'I dont know. I dont interest myself in such matters.

Apathy requires disengagement, a stepping away from involvement. Its the safe route, but whats the point of it? Sisyphus might, after all, simply step to one side and let his boulder slip away and come to rest. But then what? If he did so, who would he be? What would be his purpose? What would he have achieved but that single event?

Anyone who knows very clearly what hes doing with his life will have people who dislike him, David is told. Perhaps what is meant here is not dislike so much as lack of understanding, of appreciation.

I think that the reason that intellectual journeys are so challenging to appreciate and comprehend is their lack of resolution, of a clear outcome. Learning is a process, and its a strange, cyclical, self-referential one, much like Sisyphuss lifelong task.'It is its own reward.

During a tango workshop a few weeks ago, my teacher mentioned that everything comes back to basics, that its all about the walk. Every time she takes a step, shes achieving something: shes bringing a new perspective, or experience, or simple reaffirmation to this most basic element of dancing.

Its an ongoing effort to refine, to improve, to seek a change.

Camus and Potok have something fundamental in common. Camus tells us to imagine Sisyphus happy, and perhaps he has a point. The Sisyphean existence isnt devoid of meaning. In fact, its about'finding meaning.

As Davids teacher puts it:

A shallow mind is a sin against God. A man who does not struggle is a fool.

Its a surprising achievement to realise just how much you dont know, and its kind of exhilarating to stand there with a boulder, take a deep breath, and seek one of many, many new beginnings.

As a reader, Im a very, very happy Sisyphus.

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Other books by Chaim Potok:

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  1. Well, you are true to your word about what to expect from your posts from now on.I very much enjoyed reading this piece. Im unfamiliar with the texts but I did get your points along the way. They were clear.
    Im actually not a huge fan of turning points. What I mean is that I think that the fork in the road, the big decisions, etc. are sometimes overrated. Sometimes, shouldnt make it such a big deal overcome the obstacle and move on. I am, however, a believer of the struggle and the phrase All beginnings are hard is my new motto.

    Thank you for a thought-provoking post.

    • My pleasure, Sonia, and Im glad that you got a new motto out of it!

      I loved reading your take on turning points and big decisions, and think that you make a really good point about the danger of perceiving them as big events when thats not necessarily the case. We definitely seem to have a tendency to apply some sort of sense of importance to events that are new or milestone-esque in nature by very virtue of the fact that theyre new or unfamiliar.

      Im hoping to do a proper post on the Camus later today, and I might look at this idea in greater depth. Thanks for the thought-provoking comment! :)

  2. I really like your thoughts here. Especially: You might argue that all beginnings are turning points, and all turning points are beginnings.

    I think this cyclical nature of points in our lives doesnt necessarily make them a big deal, nor do they always need to be commemorated in ritual and importance, but they are worth that breath, that acknowledgement, and perhaps gratitude that life goes forward, moves in cycles, and the realization that the one constant in life is change.

    • I think another thing about turning points/beginnings is that they can be seen as something scary and daunting, or they can be seen as an opportunity for changea sort of freedom in our lives.

  3. Glad my essay inspired some new and creative thinkingA breath shared, perhaps